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Sunday, November 23, 2008

You want to keep something from someone, but another starts to get angry... A dilemma of some sort keeps bothering me...

I know you care... But i really don't want to become a heavier burden than i already am... Furthermore, the momentary bouts of pain isn't very frequent... Maybe i'm getting better... Maybe there isn't a need to tell them anyway...

I just wish that this stupid problem i have will just vanish... It's causing too much upset between me and others... Especially those i hold dear in my heart... Maybe it's just false alarm... Maybe it isn't really serious...

I don't know... I just want to think of it as something that wouldn't affect me at all... I wish i wasn't so apt in being acquainted by problems and mishaps... Such problems and mishaps are bringing us apart... I don't want it to...

I'm to blame for the arguments we've had... Yes it's always me... It's always about something i lack, something i don't do, something i don't possess... I have bad times too... I face anger too... I lose control occasionally...

But i will try and change... To possibly benefit those around me, close to me... I've always said that i will change... But there's always something that needs to be improvise or corrected altogether... I know i'm testing your patience... But no matter how i try, i always seem to find a way to get you upset... Maybe i'm just not cut-out for this... No matter how much i don't want you to go, maybe we might get seperated... I just hope it doesn't happen... I look forward to each brand new day everyday because of you... You made life more meaningful...

I've contemplated about my existence in this world... And truth to be told, i thought that it was better if i didn't... I've caused many a problem to people even though i try not to... Ever thought that the existence of one person is a burden to whole world...? That was how i felt each time i made someone upset... And it's frequent too...

I'll tell them what's happening to me... For you...

Izz left at 11:26 AM

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