Well well well.. Since like its been forever since i lasted posted on this blog.. ><
I'm back.. And i'll post if i have time.. =]
Keep on checking.. ^^
Izz...
Izz left at 8:42 AM
You're Once My Light...
Once Shining Bright...
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Confusion, astonishment, depression, de-motivation, helplessness...
It's killing me.
Going to be the death of me.
Talk about not giving up... I have no confidence.
So it means that Hope = Zero.
If i don't pull through, i'll not be surprised.
I'm contented enough to see the beginning of a new day.
My mind hurts. My heart hurts. Both ripped into pieces.
Being subtle is a challenge. Keeping my sanity, another one.
Can't stop thinking about it. Everything.
Hate me if you want coz i'm keeping all this in the boundaries of my head.
It's too much to share.
Besides, I already hate myself. There's no lower rung on the ladder than that.
Thanks anyway for everything.
Memories are always cherished and desires will always want to be fulfilled...
...
Barely hanging on,
Izz
Sorry... It's not going as anyone wills it to... It's just too much...
Izz left at 1:48 AM
You're Once My Light...
Once Shining Bright...
Sec 4...
Well...
Pressure is starting to build up...
Temperatures began to rise...
'O' Levels huh...?
Everyone is scared of the dreaded 'O's...
But isn't the 'O' is 'O's mean ordinary...?
So why is everyone getting so freaked out over not being able to do well...?
If we maintain consistency, there ain't gonna be a problem during 'O's...
So we should take it easy and continue doing what we already are(for those who are consistently stdying)...
Btu not too easy, mind you...
Prelims are to get you prepared for 'O's...
But if you fail Prelims, that isn't such a big problem, if you look at it optimistically...
Learn from mistakes, don't repeat them during 'O's, and you'll be just fine...
So people taking 'O's, loosen up abit... Don't get too stressed... Nothing's Impossible... =D
Since this in my first post after quite some time, let's have a recap on the recent weeks...
Victoria School retained the title of B'Division Soccer East Zone Champions!
After a great game against our street rivals St. Pats, we came away as Winners and Champions after a score of 2-0!
I started the game but got subbed out mid-way through the second half after picking up triple injuries in a space of 10 minutes...
First i got kneed at the thigh, then i got elbowed at the face resulting in a bleeding lip, and got double cramps seconds later... =/
But no matter. =) We won and that was all that mattered. =D
Went on to Nationals where we against all odds lost against the Dark Horse of our group, Bartley Sec. Score: 2-1. We hit the crossbar 4 times! Quite a feat huh?
So we had to win our next two games in order to have a chance to qualify for the quarter-finals...
Next game, we played Juying Sec. I had a horrible game and was at fault at causing their one and only goal for the game. I was taken off soon after. Score: 7-1.
Our next game was really vital. After the results of the Juying-Bartley match before, we had to win or draw against our next opponents, Singapore Sports School(SSS).
I wasn't picked to play due to my inconsistency on the pitch.
The score was 1-0 at half-time, favour to us, after a brilliant volley by Amsyar.
SSS then levelled early in the second half. But Dilip scored an amazing free-kick to put us ahead again. But, SSS Midfielder Naufal then scored a stunning free-kick that leveled the score.
Final Score: 2-2. We have qualified for the quarter-finals.
Having to salvage a draw against SSS was a milestone reached. It shows that we have what it takes to be National Champions.
And that is what we aim for after the Exam break.
Talking about exams, my final paper is tomorrow, A-Math Paper 2.
And i'm very worried. I haven't revised enough. =(
Well... Wish me all the best k...? Thank yous...
Izz...
You swooped down and saved me from the bottomless pit of despair, and now that you have me in your grasp, i know that you will never let me go... I'll hold on too, and try to further improve myself... Thank you...
Izz left at 10:56 PM
You're Once My Light...
Once Shining Bright...
I found a pair of soccer boots!
Well...
Actually my friend found it...
It was a Nike Tiempo Legend...
And it was just my size... And no one else could fit my size... [ Size : UK 5.5... o.O]
Found it during training 2 days before the east-zone semi-finals.
Heh. >.<
Lucky for me as my own pair of boots were worn out and looks rugged... =(
So, i thought i could wear those boots...
But then again, i have never worn those boots before, so i have no idea how it feels and whether i can adapt to it...
I wore it anyway... On match day...
It felt funny at first...
But it was too late for me to go home and take my other pair of boots... =/
So i had to pray hard everything will work out as i was expected to play for the whole game as Saufi is out with a ligament injury and the other left-back, Prasith, was sick...
The game started...
And who would've known!
The boots felt nice and comfy after just a few minutes in the game...
Had an awesome game and we came out winners with a score of 8-0...
We now have qualified for the finals where will meet Saint. Pats, who won Greenview 2-1...
We hope to win the East-Zone champion title after a few years absence...
We will win it...! (Should be more optimistic... =/)
Well...
That was 2 days ago... =p
Nothing interesting happened after that until now... =/
Adios people...
Izz...
Where we may come full circle again... Love...
Izz left at 3:07 AM
You're Once My Light...
Once Shining Bright...
Some say it's good to change...
Some say no it isn't...
I used to fall in the category of the latter...
It cost me a lot of dear things for not changing...
But now...
I've changed... Finally...
It took a hell long time...
But, i guess patience plays it's part...
For the things that's lost, well, i deeply regret not making the most out of it...
I still shed a few tears every now and then, remembering...
Remembering what first inspired me to change...
Remembering that it also caused a great amount of hurt when lost...
But now, it's a fresh start for me...
No more keep-to-myself-silence-only-emoish-person...
I may not be entirely open, but, it's still good enough...
Get ready world...
The new me is here...
Izz...
Thanks Naz for being my inspiration, and thanks Miza for indirectly convincing me that change doesn't always change who i really am...
My deepest gratitude to both of you, and to all the others who helped me along my journey...
Thank you...
Izz left at 2:52 AM
You're Once My Light...
Once Shining Bright...
Saturday, January 31, 2009
This song struck something in me...
David Archuleta
A Little Too Not Over You
It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It is for the best
I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Memories suppose to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it would be this hard
Should be strong, moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back
Yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, ohhh.
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you, ooh.
Izz...
i'm sorry... I'm just a little too stubborn too...
Izz left at 5:01 PM
You're Once My Light...
Once Shining Bright...
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Change...
Something you can control or you can't...
I hope i get to change for the better...
But i hope that i don't change for the worst...
Relieving me didn't give me freedom... But rather burden...
Well... I've changed i must say...
Being frank might be something that i have attained recently...
So... Memories will just go down the drain for all i care...
Those memories may be the main reason i just can't seem to move on...?
I guess so...
Sigh... Didn't want it to happen... But fate doesn't follow anyone's script...
Let's just wait and see what the future beholds...
Izz...
I don't think there will be a 'next time'...
Izz left at 9:16 PM
You're Once My Light...
Once Shining Bright...
